Before Stonewall: Jane T's Interview Clip 2 of 4
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Even after giving God the heave-ho, Jane still has baggage to cast off as she proceeds along her life's journey.
In this extract Jane recalls how her lesbianism became important in her life despite the internal conflicts it caused while she was at school, at university and during her early career as a schoolteacher. Raised in a devout family and going to a religious grammar school for girls, Jane was surrounded by religious ideas. Politics was never discussed at her school where the emphasis was always on religion and 'good womanhood', but after hearing a young curate's sermon on God being the only possible object of total devotion, and no one else, Jane became an atheist there and then.
Jane remarks that giving up on religion and recognising her lesbian self, marked the point in her life when she began to think for herself. Still bearing the legacy of conflict, even in her physical relationship with her partner, Jacky, Jane had to overcome the conditioning, which caused her to think sex between them was wrong.
She recalls how another struggle, in the 1970s, between feminists and lesbians affected her personally. As she considered herself a 'femme' she was now conflicted about cutting her hair or the way she dressed. She also observes that there were no positive lesbian role models, especially in literature and the wider culture. Lesbians were always mad, bad and sad, and always died at the end of the story. She also considered the American lesbian pulp fiction she read, to be too riddled with homophobia and self-hatred. One had to go elsewhere to find positive, happy lesbian role models.
Jane was born in 1945 to a family of shop keepers in London's Notting Hill. After passing her 11+, she attended a religious grammar school for girls. Becoming an atheist after a particularly annoying sermon, Jane decided to follow inclinations she already felt and develop her lesbian identity.
While studying at St Anne's College, Oxford, she met Jacky, who would become her life-long partner. After graduating Jane became a schoolteacher and lived with Jacky in both London and Oxfordshire. Together, they've published lesbian fiction under the pen name of Jay Taverner.